feeling some type of way..!

I always said that I wouldn't conform to this way of thinking..that "n*ggas aint sh*t". Not only because A LOT of females dwell on the very fact everyday, but because I had this small piece of hope; that state of mind that was telling me that there was in fact someone out there who would hesitate from playing games, someone who would keep it 100, someone who was well worth the wait!
I wouldn't say I was naive because I am far from that when it comes to guys, I guess I just fully wanted to believe that they (other girls) were just having bad luck or wasn't doing something right when they had the chance.
But I have come to the realization..in words simply put..N*IGGAS REALLY AINT SH*T! I hate to say it, but once you've been in so many different situations, especially where you've done nothing wrong and he doesn't know how to "act" that can be the only reliable explanation.
It's sad that you will give your all to a guy, do sh*t for him that you wouldn't dare do for any other, even attempt to open up to him and he goes and f*ck up..just don't know how to act..go around and bullsh*t like it's cute! This is one thing I don't understand, if you're not in it for the gold, why run the race?! I thought females were petty and funny acting, but these n*ggas are beginning to take the title. Just thinking about it is really blowing me..
..and another thing..why LIE?! I mean everybody don't tell the truth and that's fine. But what is the point in lying to a female if you don't have a girlfriend..you're not obligated, so just be real..that's all we (I) ask. Then some get pissy when she starts doin her.
All I can say is once a female feel she has been played, that is DEF the end (well at least for me)..and you wonder why females are "bitter" or have high standards! or is always acting funny; smh.. that simple ass average ass n*gga is why!

GOOD DAY!

♥

I read all of the magazines
While waiting around
You said you couldn't wait to see me
But you got stuck in town
So turn off the phone
Now we're finally alone
It's the moments at the end of the day
Feel you touch and it's the sweetest
Your kisses are my weakness
I never want them to go away

I wanna feel you in my heart
As i look into your eyes
No need to get busy so let's take our time
And make slow love, slow love
And every minute that we have
It goes too fast
Wanna show you how to rock it so this feeling lasts
And make slow love, slow love
Slow love, slow love, slow love all night

Just a few little things
That you've gotta know
A girl will give you all of her heart
When it's happening slow
I need a little laughter
And love will follow after
Let's take this chance to steal away
Your kisses are delicious
And no one is gonna miss us
Tonight i really want you to stay

So i'm calling out
Do you hear my cries
Don't have to say good-bye
You the breath on my skin
Cherish the taste
It's far too good to go to waste
Feel my desire
Make sweet love all through
All through the night
Make love through the night
Slow Love by Beyonce

Aug//27//09

Today was a good day, I've been in a good mood since the second I woke up this morning!
..and Despite the fact that I didn't get my refund check yet, It didn't ruin my day..
Chilled with the BEST..Kevo & LoLo*..oh and Shanta & Charles momentarily! A day full of simplicity is ALL I need!
I LOVE MY LIFE !

sn:: cooked dinner, it pretty decent//It's now 10:02..what's the call for tonight;

I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. No need to get into too many details, but for ONCE I'm at a two roadway stop and idk which direction to take..
I am leaning more towards ONE way//we'll see where I end up.

I don't want this one to slip through my fingers,
so I'm gonna play the field!
NO pun intented! :)

for some tickets tho?

The BESTIE and MYSELF decided we would camp out for our football tickets..
IF you haven't heard it's been 60 years since ODU had a football team! Point is it's a SOLD OUT season// and student tickets are LIMITED!

Funny thing is..people really had tents/huts/ & houses (lmao) so when it started raining..little bitties like US had to HIT the road. Stayed for 3 hours..left around 10:30pm..slept until 5am..came back and stayed in line until 11:50.

Got those tickets// got interviewed// had breakfast in the damn heat!

Fans? of course..what can we say we love our school!..
HOLLA HOLLA

sn: I didn't expect the lady from the daily press to come yestereday morning so excuse the headwrap! :(

It's about that t i m e!

ODU FOOTBALL
2009
I'm a BIG fan of football & more than ready for our 1st season!
idk about camping out for the tickets, BUT I'll be in line..
BRIGHT & E A R L Y!
So EXCITED;;

1st game vs. Chowan:: Sept. 5th!

sn:: we'll DEF be bringing the heat on the 12th vs. VA Union!
all bets have been p l a c e d*
Let's go Monarchs!

currently..

..missing someone.
..bored.
..cold.
..laying down.
..In need of my cherry carmax, but don't feel like getting out of bed.
..DYING to go shopping.
..addicted to his texts; ugh.
..mad that the stupid residueisevil commercial didn't come on so my roomate could see it!
..watching/but NOT watching the re-run of ABDC..vogue evolution* ..ooow!
..thinking: I should really be in Richmond right now!
..remembering those we lost JUST a MONTH ago!..R.I.P pk/george/willie ♥

WELC0ME TO MY SATURDAY NIGHT; F M L :-/

..so I guess life's most simple things are the best!..

Haven't been up here in a minute; a lot of -ish has been going on.
Lost a dear friend of mine + 2 in a crazy accident (rip to the kids pk/willie/george).
..very devastating news for the 757.
Really had me goin crazy; and to think its almost ALREADY been a month !

On a n o t h e r note..I basically worked my summer away & you would think I had the INS too show for it-->PSSH! think again..paying for rent//phone bills//groceries ..really had a taste of what the near future is to look like. (pause)
Tried a few new things; even attempted to "step out" this little "box" I live in; cut down on a few things (sn:: including weight) . Some things were for the better, others were blah! BUT I will learn from the experience & DEF keep it breezy.
couple laughs//few tears, but hey what can I say, that's life!


Met someone who I thought was one to change my perspective on some things; I was WRONG for ONCE. No hard feelings; but I do wish my time wasn't wasted.

School is about to start and I'm feeling some type of way; NEEDING that RE/fund check right about now!

on a b e t t e r note..I'm not one to get all mushy//lovey dovey..BUT shawty feelin the kidd! ;) senor cinco..hellooo*


Guess i'll end this one how I started..feelin good/feelin great! HA

..UNTIL NEXT TIME..

The BEST there ever was!

Words can't even explain how I feel about the death of Michael Jackson. Evidently I didn't know him, but as a fan I think the impact of reality hit me hard. Hands down he was the very BEST and although for the past couple of years he was publicized for all the wrong reasons, I refused to lose that image of the Michael Jackson I loved growing up. Nothing has and never will change my perspective of him.
It's just unfortunate that someone as great and life changing as he had to go so unexpectedly.
His loving memory and great music will definitely live on forever, without a doubt!

May you Rest In Peace.
Michael Joseph Jackson
1958-2009
【♥】

Oh yea..

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
to my lovely father who is in Afghanistan making ends meet!
[Miss y o u]
my 2 older brothers Ant &Tyree
my older sister Tedra [who plays b o t h roles]
uncle Dekal
Santese
George
My lovely Odell
J.Dub
Jayson
Justin [R.I.P]
Mr. Moss
Mr. Foster
Mr. Canada
Malik
Mr. Logan
Coach Moore
Coach Hester
the world needs more men as such!
..and the same goes to all those other great men out there!
Also, to those women who's mom & dad!
Today is your day.
A.janiane♥

Sitting in traffic SUCKS, especially when it's 107 degrees outside!
[not literally, but pretty close]..

But it never fails..should have known it was gonna be this way trying to get back to Norfolk!

..ugh; I hate this tunnel!
A.janiane♥

♥

Although much didn't take place, overall I enjoyed my night.
That LONG L O S T friend ended up coming to see me!

--really couldn't ask for ANYTHING more.

I LOOOVE HER!

Since today is the HOTTEST day of the year my plans for the beach are
cancelled (for now),so Courtney and I are just maxin in the house..We went to Dairy Queen;
I needed my dose of a caramel moolatte! <--they're the B E S T! Tonight we don't have plans..a good friend may pay me a visit. [Haven't seen him in forever]

--sn: I really feel as if I've been wasting my time these past couple of months; expectations were a bit too high..and clearly he couldn't fulfill them! This life I'm living now [working, school and having fun] is all I need. Don't need the burden of being obligated to anyONE!

"In case you didn't know, I be the baddest b*tch doin it"
-nikki minaj<

UUG!
I l o v e this man!

add it up!

Wtf..I've been waiting for summer to get here. I guess I forgot just
what the 75 is capable of..
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING;
Besides work just about everyday and an occasional outing on the
weekends, nothing has yet to make my summer..I mean it is only June, so
I guess I can give it just a little more time..
Other than that I'm living..feeling some type of way, but can't quite
grasp the right words to explain it.
I'm tired of Norfolk, In desperate need in a change of scenery; def will be at vcu for my Junior and Senior year..!
July 1st is almost here..which means P A Y DAY! ..after rent, a lil
change on my phone bill..and groceries I think I will be taking my long awaited vaca in MiAMi with my bro!
Hopefully things will go as planned!..

15th NBA Championship; LA

4th Championship ring.
2009 MVP
Average of OVER 30 points per game !
he is the TRUTH
Kobe Bryant
If you're not used to him now; you better learn to!

sn: GLAD the finals are FINALLY over! sheeeesh

they say it's fiddy !

..Came home from the beach JUST in time today to catch my love on Jimmy Kemmel! I swear I ALMOST forgot how much I LOVE him!..sigh..
..and that SMILE; mm mmm mmmm! lol
ANYWHO..
he's a CEO, he raps, has his own: shoe line, clothing line, line of watches, vitamin water, he's an actor, and he has his cologne coming out..what's next!?
50 Cent--you may not like him; but he's def a paper chaser!

Before I self Destruct--coming SOON!

Happy Birthday Best Fran !

My bestest friend since 6th grade [almost 7 years!]
ANYWHO
Last night we went to the cave--> :-/
unsuccessful
(glad it was f r e e!)
..BUT it was Kera's birthday, so I can't complain!
ON ANOTHER NOTE::
I got in at 2:03 a.m..didn't fall asleep until about 3
and had to wake up at 7 for work!..Now I'm sitting here waiting for that 5th HOUR!

((HOLLA))
l0l

Thank GOD It's FRIDAY!

Sittin at work bored..texting my life away.
On my 3rd cup of coffee..that's not working!
(I need to pull myself together)
It's 1:01 and I've been here for 5 hours!..
[MEANING] 4 more hours to go..
(I'm tryna push 9 straight hours..NO BREAK) l0l
I'm ready to go home; S H O W E R & S L E E P!..

you're a jerk !..i know

"ITTY BITTY..REAL PRETTY;
BUT I'M NOT SOFT"
nicki minaj

HaLF aND HaLF.

This weekend was a MESS..not including Tiarra's bday cookout/gathering and the fact that I was with my girls!

I guess besides getting locked out of my apartment for 1 hour and 1/2..and getting my FIRST and LAST speeding ticket..It was pretty decent.

lol and If you don't know, regardless of the circumstance me and my girls will turn it o u t!

-kaytee.shay.courty-

p.s..hmm a certain someone was acting brandNEW; very comical, no biggie tho..

-the end-

Boyfriend Numero Dos!

So I was walking to work this morning; I practically live on campus..where my job is so it's convenient) ..anyway when I was approached by this old random man (old enough to be my pops). First he said good morning and I replied with a smile, he then asked if I had a boyfriend..I said yes and kept it moving. You would think he got the point, but if u thought so, then you're wrong. lol He then asked if I wanted another, something like Boyfriend Number 2..wtf, really? lmao

THEN..

On my way home for my lunch break I was in the middle of a text when another random man decided to approach me and ask who was in my phone..I looked at him and kept walking. Apparently my gestures mean continue to talk to me and I just might give you a chance, because for some apparent reason he thought I wanted his number in my phone! lol..and went out his way to let it be known that the next time he sees me he's gonna put his number in my phone..

..a little entertainment for the day I guess?!..

ew.

random

"I can't leave him alone; I tried that good boy game,
but the dope boys turn me on."

Song on my mind, but not really the story of my life..a dope boy tho? really?
(pause)...

homewrecker?

Word to the little bitties out there::

You CANNOT compete with his number 1: she's the ride or die, the one who has his heart (even if he tries to hide it), the one who knows that other side that no one else sees, the one who break up to make up..yea HER!
He may front, he may spit "game" (telling you what you what you wanna hear<--for you slow bitties), he may do whatever to make you believe you're the ONLY one. But if you fall for it you set yourself up for failure! ..and if you start to fall then your feelings will get hurt.
He's just actin up..may seem like a little fun in his eyes, but at the end of the day that SAME number 1 is there and there's no telling what number you may be! HA

Don't waste your time dealing with a guy you KNOW is dealing with another girl; trust me, It doesn't end well!

[good day]

IS Y0U R0LLIN'?"

Sooo it decides to be 93 degrees the day we moved into our new apartment; did NOT mix with my attitude..and all those boxes we had to carry around.
Nevertheless we're all done & unpacked (for the MOST part) and I must say I LOVE IT!

First day of work was actually ok; worked my way around the office.
Idk how I feel about the early wake up call tho..6:30? Don't know when the last time I even woke up before 8 o'clock..but I'm a paper chaser and I like nice things! <--can't buy those things with no money..
[speaking of which; the GUCCI duffle bag is SCREAMING my name]

Tomorrow ..same schedule; time to get busy!

ooh yeea..TOMORROW IS MOVING DAY!..new apartment :)

5 threeONE 2009

Calm.Cool.Collected--> Get with IT

p.s..Tomorrow is my first day at work !

"there's something that you do that got me walking on the moon"

So me & one of the roomies are watching 106 (ONLY because I got a phone call informing me that the love of my LIFE 50 cent was on the show) ..anyway The Dream introduced his new video "walking on the moon". Idk how I feel about it; didn't like the fact that Kanye is a featured artist->yuck! Besides that..I guess it has to grow on me..! (pause)

late night tip;

Just when I thought my friday night was a flop; HE came and changed it..love it!

A.janiane♥

From 110 to 2 0 4

spent my day cleaning/packing..now im READY for that change of scenery..making moves & leaving whoever behind that's not with it !

A.janiane♥

beginning of a fresh start..

I've been feeling like I have been dealing with a bunch of dead ends lately, seriously. "friends", guys, opportunities..All I know is that this isn't me. Time to get back focused and do what I do best. Seems like I've been down for too long and tryna fake it.
Nobody is 100%; not even the ones you think you know. HA just give it time & their true colors will show.
Vacation? much needed!..plane ticket to MIAMI will definitely be my 1st major gift to myself in a while.